:Lately I have been noticing feelings of guilt, and insecurity. More specifically I realized that I doubt myself in knowing what I want because I often want to make others happy. I feel insecure about speaking Icelandic. I feel as though I have to speak perfectly or else I can't say anything at all. Lastly I feel as though I am not "doing enough" because I am working only part time and don't have a full schedule of responsibilities. Logically I know that none of this is true, yet I am still having these thought patterns which are creating challenging emotions. Naming them has helped immensely, just having awareness of what is happening is so healing.
And then I heard what unfold studios monthly topic was: Yoga Sutras: 1.3 "Then the Seer abides in Itself, resting in its own True Nature, which is called Self-realization.( tada drashtuh svarupe avasthanam) There is a Sanskrit chant that addresses identifying with our true nature rather than with everything else that we are a part of. I realized how helpful it could be to add my own personal challenging identities to the list that the avantam chatakam holds.
Here is a translation from wikipedia of the avantam chatakam.
1) I am not mind, nor intellect, nor ego, nor the reflections of inner self (chitta). I am not the five senses. I am beyond that. I am not the ether, nor the earth, nor the fire, nor the wind (the five elements). I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Shivam), love and pure consciousness.
2) Neither can I be termed as energy (prana), nor five types of breath (vayus), nor the seven material essences, nor the five coverings (pancha-kosha). Neither am I the five instruments of elimination, procreation, motion, grasping, or speaking. I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Shivam), love and pure consciousness.
3) I have no hatred or dislike, nor affiliation or liking, nor greed, nor delusion, nor pride or haughtiness, nor feelings of envy or jealousy. I have no duty (dharma), nor any money, nor any desire (kama), nor even liberation (moksha). I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Shivam), love and pure consciousness.
4) I have neither merit (virtue), nor demerit (vice). I do not commit sins or good deeds, nor have happiness or sorrow, pain or pleasure. I do not need mantras, holy places, scriptures (Vedas), rituals or sacrifices (yagnas). I am none of the triad of the observer or one who experiences, the process of observing or experiencing, or any object being observed or experienced. I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Shivam), love and pure consciousness.
5) I do not have fear of death, as I do not have death. I have no separation from my true self, no doubt about my existence, nor have I discrimination on the basis of birth. I have no father or mother, nor did I have a birth. I am not the relative, nor the friend, nor the guru, nor the disciple. I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Shivam), love and pure consciousness.
6) I am all pervasive. I am without any attributes, and without any form. I have neither attachment to the world, nor to liberation (mukti). I have no wishes for anything because I am everything, everywhere, every time, always in equilibrium. I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Shivam), love and pure consciousness
So here is my own variation of the first stanza: "I am not my guilt, my work ethic, my insecurities, my homesickness. I am not my feelings. I am beyond that. I am not doubt, nor desire, nor my body. I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, love and pure consciousness."
What a powerful practice to let go of all of our identities, especially the one's that are not serving us and instead identify with love. What a joy to practice yoga.
You can hear Molly Lannon Kenny chant this beautiful poem in Sanskrit here:
Written by teachers at unfold studios and guest authors.